I Feel My Help

I know that God wants me to trust Him. We are making a move to another city. With our situation right now, it’s kind of scary. But I have to trust God. I can remember when I was a child and I would get in the car with my mom. “Where are we going?” I’d ask her. “Just sit back and ride,” would be her reply. And without thinking twice, I’d sit back and ride as she ordered. I wasn’t scared not knowing where I was going. Because I was with my mother, and I trusted her. I trusted her not to do anything that would hurt me, harm me, or that could damage me. If God is my Father, my provider, my healer, my maker, my everything, why should it be hard for me to trust Him? Is it because I can’t see Him? I hear Him clearly. I feel Him. I have a peace that just came over me. I feel that He is leading me. But when you are human and used to planning things out, the unknown is scary. I can remember crying all night the week that I wrestled with the decision to leave my job. I didn’t know if I would have income. I didn’t know what would happen. And since I’ve been gone from my job for a year this month, I can’t imagine not trusting. We’ve been able to do so much more than we were able to do when I was working making $24/hour.

I feel better this morning. Prayer last night was needed. It spoke to my soul. I was so excited about what I was hearing. The car had stopped and I was frustrated. It seems like the car has been running fine until yesterday. It was unbelievable. But, God made a way. We were able to get the car pushed to our mechanic and this morning, we will drop off the morning to get it fixed. I was just thinking that having car problems before this move was not good. We will be so far out that we would need our car. But, I have to depend on God, not a car. I know He will make a way as He always does. He’s never left me. I feel my help. I feel that shift. I’m in that same place I was when I was leaving my job. Trusting God alone. I can see His hand, all I have to do is grab it and hold on to it.


Christian Churches Under Attack?

What do we do when our church is under attack. As the body of Christ, we should defend ourselves. With the recent allegations for sexual abuse charges against Bishop Eddie Long, and other scandals that include authority figures in the church, what do we do when our confidence and our trust in them has diminished? Not to mention those Christians who are babes, and don’t have the strength to know that it is an attack on the church. Yes, these people in authority who pray over us and go to God on our behalf are abandoning their position and giving in to their flesh. What do we, as Christians, do to regain face, trust, and to take back our good name. Christian.  The definition is 1. of, pertaining to, believing in, or belonging to the religion based on the teachings of Jesus Christ: 2. a person who exemplifies in his or her life the teachings of Christ:

So, when our authority figures don’t display a life style that represents Jesus’ teaching, how does that look to the rest of the world? This is a bit different Blog. Not just a ranting, but something for you all to get involved. To my Christians out there, what do we do in a time like this? What can we do to regain face, trust, and faith in our leaders? Help me out!


Untitled Post

I’m soaring. I’m on cloud nine. My article has been published and it’s so hard to believe that this is happening. I don’t know exactly what God has in store. But success is infectious. Working on my first manuscript. I have to get something completed to be published. I just can’t think of a good title. I’m not good with titles. It’s something that I have to work on. I find that after the story is completed, then I can come up with a title. Until I complete a story, it will remain “untitled”. Just like this post.


Day Seven – Evening

Last day! I made it! Mostly packed today. Didn’t have much of a desire to eat until later this afternoon. In awe of the things that God has done during this fast. I’ve committed to praying every day until October 31st with Pastor Jamal Bryant. I pray everyday anyway, but I’ve entered into a covenant for phone prayer. God is going to change some things around. The last will be first, the lenderer will become the borrower, the tail shall be the head. Things are looking up. God is delivering, setting free, and healing. I can’t wait to see what we look like after this month. I can’t wait to see what becomes of us moving. I know God is getting us in position, but I’m not sure for what. I know that everything we put our hands to will prosper. That means my writing career, school, my husband’s employment situation, his starting his own company, our credit situation, our spirituality, and the list goes on and on…

This has been a great seven days. Each time I fast, I will make sure to document it in a blog. I know another fast is coming soon. My husband encouraged me to continue when I wanted to stop. He was patient with me when I was praying, while I was fasting. I feel new. I feel rejuvenated. I thank the Lord for what He has done.

~Good Evening. Sharyse

Day Six – Evening

I didn’t get much sleep. I went to bed around 1:30am and got up at 6:00am. I’ve been exhausted. My mind has really been racing. Racing on how good my God is. Tomorrow is my last day on the fast, and the first day of my new season. I’m looking back on how far I’ve come in just six days. How my life has changed in just six days. God can do anything. My thoughts are different. When I used to get frustrated, I’m seeing that God is setting us up for something. What exactly, I don’t know, but who needs the details when the Alpha and Omega is leading you? About to get ready for evening prayer. I prayed this afternoon. I feel like this move is a new beginning. New beginning for my husband and his spirituality and employment situation, new beginning for our “family”. I feel like it is all coming together. I dare not speak what I’m thinking, but God knows.

I really didn’t eat breakfast or lunch today. I was so sleepy, I didn’t feel like doing much. For dinner, veggie tacos.

Six Days Down, One To Go (Tomorrow is going to be AWESOME!!!)

~Good Evening. Sharyse

Day Five – Evening

I did it. I called my sister and made amends. My godmother recently lost her sister and I thought, “I don’t want anything to happen and my sister and I haven’t talked”. So, I called her and confronted her. I told her how I felt and why. So, we’re talking again. And I’ve noticed that my reactions and responses are different than they used to be.

The prayer last night was that in 72 hours things in our life would change dramatically. Upon talking to my sister, I learned that my uncle was moving out of his house and letting it go into foreclosure. The house would be empty for the next 6-12 months. With the issues we are having here, I figured I could call my uncle and ask if we could stay in his house for a while until we got on our feet. Needless to say we will be moving next weekend!

God is so good. He’s setting us up for something great! He’s stripping us both of what we don’t need! He’s making us new! Hallelujah! I’m already seeing the manifestations of the Lord. I still have refrained from meat and caffeine. I can’t give you too much information, but, I am almost there!

Five Days Down, Two To Go!

~Good Evening. Sharyse

Day Four – Evening

My faith is stretched! I’m getting ready for my coming out party! After tonight, I will be a new person. I won’t have doubt, or worry, or stress holding me back. It’s got to get off me! My faith is stretched! I’m healed, my husband’s employed, my prayer life is stronger. My faith is stretched! I’m a new person. I can’t hardly believe the things that I will be doing. Immediately! God is going to do it for us IMMEDIATELY! God is delivering. IMMEDIATELY! God is healing. IMMEDIATELY! God is saving. IMMEDIATELY! God is answering prayers. IMMEDIATELY! I guess you can tell that prayer tonight was off the chain!!!

For dinner I had a salad and broccoli fettuccine alfredo.

Four Days Down, Three To Go.

~Good Night. Sharyse

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